Silhouette

Any song featuring Ellie Goulding is actually going to be lush, and guess what? This one is no exception. My mum doesn't know her name, but whenever she hears one of her songs on the radio she asks me " Its this the water girl?", because for some reason she calls ' Anything Could Happen ' the water song..therefore Ellie is the water girl. Oh Mummy. The fire works have started already. I love fire works. The smell,that smoky familiar scent that looms around the autumn nights, the unexpected beauty of their colourful explosions, which melt into the darkness of the sky and yes, even the noise of them. When I was a child I remember the big bonfires we would have in the car park next to church before they built the flats there. I remember mum making a last minute Guy Fawkes doll and it looking fabulous. My mum can do that, make something amazing in no time, be it a art drawing, decorating a room or making up a new years fancy dress costume for all the family. Its a gift and I love her for it. Going back to the topic of the bonfires, I realize now that the memories that have stayed with me growing up are ones where there are many people gathered, but these people are not strangers, I'm familiar and comfortable around them. I cant remember the faces of many of them, but when I think back, its a cosy memory, a secure memory. I'm very blessed to have had the upbringing I had, it was without tragedy and strife. I had a mother who let me grow my very own character, and imparted wisdom and kindness into my everyday life. This has turned into a bit of a ode to mummy speech, but I'm just typing what comes to me in the moment, and this time its my mum. My eccentric, irreplaceable Mum. 

Stupid Cupid

Cupid, Draw back your bow~

I've got a thing for this song, its sounds excellent. 

Lots of changes have happened in just one day, I cant really explain it in detail, but lets just say a lot of prayer is needed. Its like new beginnings..but yes..I'll stay strong for my family. 

Its mine and mums lazy Monday today. She has Mondays off from work and we just sit and watch TV and drink coffee. We watched more Episodes of City Hall, Kim Sun Ah and Choi Seung Won's chemistry is brilliant. I approve. Chicken Run was watched also and as usual it was brilliant as ever. If anyone ever wants to know what Britain is truly like, they should watch that film. Pure Genius. I'm trying to cut down on tea and coffee intake and replacing it with other herbal hot drinks and green tea, but I'm finding it difficult. It's been really slow today, so I'm trying to speed it up by cleaning out the computer, because it full of so much crap. I should be very ashamed of myself. It would be ideal to have an external hard-drive really, but money doesn't grow on trees, so for the moment I'm driver-less..in more way than one. 

Very much missing my love this week, LDR suck people. I wouldn't wish it upon anyone. It's like voluntarily having a hole in your heart, because its a space you're saving for this far away person and of course, a hole in the heart hurts..even if it is a metaphorical one. 

Absence makes the Heart Grow Fonder

It is Saturday and Minnie is home for the weekend!! It's been great, and today has lasted for ever which is really nice. We started the day with a few hours of Kingdom Hearts, then proceeded onwards in our march of awesome entertainment by watching Big Bang's Alive tour 2012 concert which was absolutely Fantastic Baby(had to do it ). I feel so privileged to have been able to see them live.Thanks to my sister again for buying me the ticket and paying for my travel to get up London, you may not know it but I feel touched. If you read any of my blogs you'll know I quite like my sibling a lot. I was just wondering now how many months of my life have been taken up by Make up tutorials...should I be worried? I feel inspired..like contour..that shizz is epic. 

I got sent this yesterday by a annoyingly special someone with a message attached to it saying "Warning:may induce feels" 

http://www.buzzfeed.com/jeremybender/reasons-why-long-distance-relationships-are-better-than-y

Ok the content of this link is no doubt very adorbs and marshmallows, but it the fact that the special person sent me this is the best thing, I was like crumpling up into a whole " I cant even you this person" mess, and I think for a moment I actually melted. I have a moral to this story though which is that it is the thought that counts ..really. So go out and think up or write/post/link something that will make that special someone smile or if you do it right, even melt.

 I am going to go watch Howls Moving Castle now on our wonderful LED/HD/HQ/1080p Smart TV, which is one of the most blessed things we own in this house and enjoy a cup of tea. 

I'd like a iMac

No lie, my nails have been growing so fast lately..what have I been doing differently? Not much up, the only thing that is different is that I've probably hidden deeper into my unsocial and unproductive world. I see people saying " Oh Im so behind in this and in that..so lazy..unproductive" and I'm sat here like oh young one, you know not the meaning. I have mastered the art of procrastination, its not even a skill now, it has consumed me. I am in deep doodoo. Apparently writing to do lists are a big help..If only I didnt give up trying to make one when I dont have a pen immediately to hand . Even if I had a gun pointed to my head, I dont think I'd be bothered.That bad thing is a I find it rather comical. Oh Lord preserve me. In other news, having abstained from the dreaded bread monster for these past few days, I gave in to temptation and had four glorious slices of toast which I most thoroughly enjoyed, the spreading of dad's home made blackberry jam made the experience even more delightful. I cooked some really good fried rice yesterday, I surpassed myself, it was seriously tasty, even mum enquired just a moment ago if I could make it again tonight, but dad has already made some soup and I used up all the rice yesterday so its a no for now. Awww Sam has just come into the darkened hovel to say hello, what a cute booboo. He must be attracted by what I'm listening to at the moment

I dont know one comes across these things, but I like it so its all good. I love that old scratchy sound, makes music sound all the more warmer and worn in, like a pair favourite pair of trainers. Speaking of trainers, I got a pair of knock of converse for seven quid, they are pretty good, from a certain distance you cant even tell they aren't the legitimate hollowed canvas treasures which grace so many peoples feet these days. I'm proud of there fake success and will wear them proudly. Oh my word what am I even listening to, its making me so happy.  

Waldir, who ever you may be, you doeth bring me joy. 

White Teeth

Firstly, this is what I'm listening to at the moment. It is on repeat and I just love it

I've just  been watching heck loads of youtube vids..and all I can notice is how white everyone's teeth are...Can I have? I'm supposedly going to get my teeth whitened for my birthday, but as with everything in my life, I'm not to sure. Ha! I've run out of things to say already..mmm... Well a lot of Korean drama and anime has been consumed in these past few weeks...mainly because my sister got a subscription to Crunchyroll, so no adds and on the smart tv (also purchased for us by Minnie..what a blessing) it HD, so giant HD anime..its kind of heavenly? Yes it is heavenly, and utterly stopping any sort of life progression, but when  such things as Attack on Titan and Free! have been airing, one doesn't even care does one. Free! is just ridiculous....ridiculously brilliant, and once you watch it you totally know why its called Free!...yes..and Attack on Titan well..that just messes up your life and thinking and head and existence, and yet you anticipate the next heart braking episode each week..waiting..hoping...

 Things have been good on the gaming front, I have been playing the Kingdom Hearts 1.5 remix for ps3 ( minnie bought it for me..why are you so kind :'(  ) Its been so nostalgic, because I used to watch Minnie play it..come to think of it I never played any of the games we had when I was younger, I just sat and watched my sister play and was contented. When you first get to destiny island and  you're running around with Sora collecting raft building equipment, it was like revisiting the past, because last time I had been there, it was a long time ago, when it was new and you didn't know what was going to happen next, of course now I know what's going to happen, but now playing it, not only is it fun and entertaining, you also get the memories trickling back to you, the feeling or even conversations you had when you were there last..I've lost my train of thought and I'm waffling, but I get what I'm saying and that's all that matters here. So I'm still at Transverse Town, so early days but looking to the rediscovering of the other worlds and memories. I feel I've taken three year long steps back in life, but I'm not worried right now, at least I dont think I am. I wont lie, a few things in the past few weeks have had me kind of unsure and unsettled, a few of these things are because of my own doing, which I fully admit. I thank God for the friends that I have...boy do we take our friends for granted, we're so consumed with trying to please all the wrong people, when actually there are these beautiful, inspiring and wonderful people who have been placed in our lives to be that bit of support you need sometimes ( or a lot of the time). They listen to you, they make you laugh, they just go with the flow..man they are awesome. I think to myself " Oh you know no one ever asks how you are, no one wants to know going on with you, you're of no interest to anyone blah blah ect ect " but actually, that's utter tosh because I know SO many people care about me and want to know how I am, want me to be happy..if you take a step back and pause when you're thinking shizz like that, you'll see straight away those are lies, the devil shoots out those suckers like hot cakes when you're feeling poobum about yourself..he really does. 

 Looking for love in all the wrong places is not just a poetical or ponderous sentence..we do it, as humans we aspire to be loved, we want it from as many places/people/animals as we can get...but sometimes we pick the wrong subject to receive love from. Maybe its the wrong kind of love, maybe its not the kind of love you need at a certain point in your life..either way..we choose wrongly sometimes, and no one is perfect, emotions and feelings take over so easily that you can sometimes build this reasoning to make your reasons sound feasible..or not so pathetic. You can tell if you are trying to get love from the wrong thing if it drains you..if it only gives you momentary happiness..if its not constant..if you begin to judge yourself for it..the list goes on. But you know what, and I know its cliche and why not, cliches are normally truthful, God is so worth investing your love and time into, he's so constant and never ending, like a persons is born, loves, dies...and that's it, but God's love has never stopped, its the most constant thing in your life right now..I forget that...I forget that he sent his son to die on the cross for my sins and life, I forget the blessings that have been placed into my life, I forget the change that has been made in me over the years..I just forget and its scary how easy it is to forget..how can humans who crave love ignore and forget the one true love that God has for them..how do we forget? I've kind of baffled myself here and am a bit lost for words but I suppose the jist of it is..Seek God's love..its there, its unconditional, its free and wonderful. 

Just a few shots.

Just a few shots.

Vintage sea and BB cream

I was tidying my room the other day, because it hadn't been cleaned for ages and it needed it. I was sorting out the desk which I fling everything onto, and I thought that all the colours and what not looked really nice. I took pictures of the some of the stuff Min brought me back from Korea, and also the new tops I bought from T.K.Maxx because I love them and they were a bargin

My half organized - sad -excuse - of a desk

THE BB CREAM(only Korea could produce such an amazing substance)

Also the skin malgeum which is I must say, most refreshing. I don't exactly know what it

does but every time a swipe it on, my skin looks and feels fresher.

that's both of them looking all cute out of their boxes

thank you Men for the foreign beauty products, I love them lots~

Here's some of the Kpop produce that was collected for me, because you cant go to Korea and not buy Kpop merch'

but its su QT :3

SO I got these designer babies from T.X.Maxx. T.K.Maxx curbs my cravings for craving elite clothes. Why ? you may as. Well I'll tell you, its basically a shop full o f designer clothes...but for high-street prices. You can buy a Ralph Lauren coat for £50 if you go at the right times. How can one not love that? The first item I got was Kookai jumper T-shirt, with tiny gold bunches? sewn into the sleeves, Its so my style because its casual, but with a smart pair of trousers and some sweet shoes, you can transform it into something rather dressy I think.

The second is a long lazy summer T by Levi's, and I saw it and the colours were just so beautiful, like a vintage picture of the sea? and I HAD to have it. It was just the kind of thing I wanted for summer, light, long and loose. I bought it and looked at it when I got home and realized it was from one of my favourite brands and that made me even more rejoiceful. It was a good day tbh.

and also it was made in Portugal, and as we all know Francisco speaks Portuguese....and the fact that hes from Brazil doesn't really matter because the connection is still there ya know?